Many Thanks!

i want to thank all of the individuals that attended the gathering on Saturday. it was a phenomenal event, one that i will cherish for the rest of my life.

as i was driving over tot he hall on Saturday, i was thinking to myself that there would be just a handful of Kicker's. to my surprise, it was packed. the event was surreal. i had to pinch myself for i did not believe it to be real. one never knows how much one is loved until you get sick. i truly felt the love. what was the most amazing aspect of the event was the generosity of individuals that i did not know until Saturday. when i have doubts about the world, i will look back to Saturday night and i know that there is hope left for this world. Thank you to all that planned the event, attended and dontated items and time. i am a lucky man

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i trust that you all had a wonderfully long weekend. it went by too quickly for my liking.

last week was quite interesting. returning to work was more challenging than i thought. my head begins to hurt after lunch. i am able to cope with it.

i was able to speak with my GI doctor. i have an appointment with him next Tuesday. he has some options for me. i have no idea what that means, but i will find out. i plan to speak with my neurologist this week. at this rate i should have all of my medical stuff in order. i just need to get my body in order. :)

Stupid Heart Monitor

yesterday i was fitted with the stupid heart monitor. it truly gets in the way. luckily the nodes are fixed fairly strongly to my chest. the monitor has gone flying when i take off my shirts. at least i only have 5 more hours to wear it. i cannot wait to take a shower. i cannot get the monitor wet. i am dying to bathe. spraying cologne on and taking sponge baths is for the birds. i am dying to take a long hot shower. if you see me today, beware of my funk. :)

i received my blood test results. everything was negative. i do have slightly elevated LDL. i better exercise more. it is tough when you have limited energy and cannot play the ports that give you pleasure. oh well. i better bike more. i do not know what to think since all of the tests came back negative. now what? i cannot wait to see my neurologist to see how he will determine what the cause of my tingling is. the tingling does not occur often. i still want to know what is going on.

Back to Work

today was my first day back in seven weeks. time has flown by and much has changed since my last moments in the office. it was wonderful to get back to see my staff. i did not enjoy coming back to over a thousand emails and countless phone messages. i will not get into the crises that need to be addressed. i spent much of my time speaking with my colleagues and hearing what is and has been going on. i missed a lot. the staff did a wonderful job addressing situations that arose while i was out. i am lucky to have them. being in a work environment was a lot more taxing then i remember. it ended up giving me a headache. that being said, it was good to be back

i also had a doctors appointment. i had a TB test and they had to see if i had a reaction to it. obviously, i did not. that was a wasted test and wasted my time. tomorrow i go in to be fitted with another holter heart monitor. i hope it is only for a 24 hour period and not longer. we shall see. i still do not know why they insist that i do this again. i have a slow heart rate. get over it. oh well. what is another co-pay

it was the last Friday before i return to work. of course, it is finally getting nice out. seven weeks have flown by. i have to say i am feeling much better. i am a bit apprehensive about returning to work and being in meetings and such. it will be a radical transition.

i spent much of the morning with my primary care physician. she checked me up, down and all around. she was supposed to have received information from my neurologist but she had not. she inquired with the records department, but there was nothing. i really cannot believe that they did not send anything to them. they were very good in getting information to my GI and ophthalmologist. at least this time i brought all of the letters and documentation i received from all of the doctors. together we pieced what type of blood work i should have done. i had 8 test tubes of blood drawn, tetanus shot and a TB scratch. needless to say, i am tired of needles. i should have the results next week and i am able to access them online. i have to say that it is pretty slick even though i have no idea what some of the tests are or what is good or bad.

it is my hope that all of the mother's out there had a wonderful day. i spent most of the day with my mother.

my intestines are still not very good. i have a couple of appointments with the doctor this week. i hope that i have a greater understanding of what is going on. we shall see. i just got off the phone with the heart doctor and he wants me to wear a heart monitor again and see him shortly there after. i was not expecting that. i figured since i had not heard form them in quite sometime, that i was free and clear on that one. i guess it could be to check me out again since i do have such a low heart rate. that is all speculation

Oh So Tired

i was unable to get a wink of sleep last night. i was up all night going to the bathroom because of my stupid intestines. my GI nurse neglects to return my phone calls. unfortunately, the tingling in my arms came back with a vengeance. my neck is exceptionally stiff. i feel like i have taken a step backwards.

needless to say, i am exhausted. it is my hope that i will be able to nap today. we shall see